Oh Kirsty - big big big hugs.

I can completely relate to the washing machine emotions and my loss wasn't anywhere near as horrific as yours.

Please know that what you are feeling is so 100% normal. You are so brave and I'm so glad that you trust us all enough to let your emotions out here.

I can understand you being cranky / confused at your DH. Who knows what goes through their minds. He will probably change his mind once you have moved into your new house - I really hope he does. And until then take the time to greive.

And please don't feel guilty that you are not greiving Speckle enough - it is very obvious to all of us here how much you love Speckle and what a wonderful mother you are to Speckle.

Big big hugs.

Liss.