OP it will be tough Some people (like me) just dont cope. I had to completely isolate myself from babies and people with babies- even family. It takes an incredibly strong person to be able to be happy for someone else when your own heart is breaking. Some days you may be strong enough- and some days you just wont be- and thats ok. You may be fine some days, and other days you will just want to crawl under a rock and pretend that the rest of the world just doesnt exist

Hopefully your friend will understand that. Sadly it may be hard for her too- she will probably feel like she doesn't know how much to share with you for fear of rubbing salt in your wound. So she might back away from you- thinking she is doing the right thing- and that may hurt just as much as seeing her Its not a fun situation to be in (none of what you are going through is ) hopefully you and your good friend have an open and honest and caring relationship where you can let each other know how your feeling about it all (and that may change to a day to day or even hour by hour basis depending how your emotions are going on any given day- especially as things get closer to your due date ) and go from there.

OP I am so sorry that you have had this horrible experience, I am so sorry that your baby isnt still growing in your belly. I wish I could take your pain away for you xoxox