Tily, re photos - if you have them posted online somewhere, there's a thread somewhere around here that mums can use to share photos. Are they on facebook? Or flickr?

Or you can post them in your Belly Belly photo album if you're not ready for the whole world to see them.

Hun I wrote a long post about the same sort of thing - I thought I was ok and then came crashing down in a big heap. I think its a bit of self-preservation, your mind lets you compartmentalise it to protect yourself when it is so raw and real and then at some stage the walls come down and you start to deal with what has happened.

I wish there was more I could say, more I could do.

On a selfish note, I just noticed yesterday's post, picked it up, rego, bill from accountant, then an envelope that said VCGS Pathology. Opened it up, its a bill for our 10.5wk maternal serum testing.

Why couldn't they have written that one off? They don't know what happened... nor do they care, a service is a service, we had a test done and it needs to be paid for. But its still another kick in the guts. I got all emotional when I realised what it was.