Well i went to see the dr who had seen me at casualty on Sunday he didnt realise that i already knew and had seen my normal dr.. So that was a bit frustrating.. He spoke to us about our decision to let it go naturally but this worried him and he went over the chances of it not completing which my other dr hadnt as i had been sooo upset it was too hard to take in.. So anyway i told him how i didnt want the D & C especially from the surgeon in town i dont like him and have heard some horror stories about him and we have no other options small town thing...

But he has told me about these tablets that he inserts in my vagina and it will then happen in the next few hrs or so.. I will have to be admitted for some of the day but at least it will be over with and we know that it will be over and not go on for too long or not know when it will end.. So at this stage if it hasnt happened by Friday morning im going in to get this done...

So hopefully i can get on with grieving and we can try and get back to being as normal as possible..