Hey chickie,

What you are feeling is normal...it's not self-pity, it's just a heart felt reaction to something that is very dear to you...totally understandable...totally real...

Give yourself time...time to be angry, to cry...to do what you need to do...

Give yourself space...space from others, space from making decisions, space from "needing to cope"...some of the best advice I ever heard was "giving yourself some space isn't selfish, it's self preservation"...sometimes you just need to limit contact for a bit...that's okay...

Each day at at time...

I totally understand (my SIL is 8 months pregnant)...and it does get easier, truly...I still have tough times, but I have watched myself and my DH get stronger and deeper over the last 8 months. You will too.

Trust yourself, trust your heart...and look after it.

Thinking of you.