Glad Heidi is doing better and so sad that this is a bad week for you. It's always harder when you aren't there with them, as it feels like something you CAN do for them in the hospital to try to make up for feeling like you've failed them by not keeping them safe. It's a terrible, irrational guilt that I know Sal carries with her for not keeping our boys in her belly longer. It's not your fault, you body did the best thing for her and got her out so she wouldn't get sick from the infection. It's a crazy, hard thing you are being asked to do, you miss out on so much, the big round belly and all the attention that comes with being that pregnant. You have a new baby, yet when you go out, she's not with you. It's a terribly hard thing to deal with, give yourself time to grieve the lost weeks of your pregnancy, it is a loss even though Heidi is still with you, you have had so much taken away that so many people can't imagine.
You are doing the best job as her Mum as you can do, staying away at the moment is protecting her and just keep remembering that you will take her home and she will be your little baby girl at home with you making up your family of four where she belongs. I am amazed at your strength at every post, Heidi is such a lucky little girl to have two parents who love her as much as you do. Keep going Mum, you can do this!
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