Mako your feelings are pretty normal hun. I was a complete mess after my first angel, and I only came to terms with it after the EDD. I had lost another angel inbetween the first one and the first EDD and like you, I couldnt morn that loss properly because I was still a mess over the previous loss (which coincedentally was a Dec angel too). When the EDD came, I wrote a message to my little precious love on a balloon and sent it up to the sky. After that I felt better, lighter and felt I could move on and try to make another baby. SOmetimes we need to let go over our feelings of loss of life to be able create a new life. The time and healing will come on its own, just be kind to yourself and know that the universe will bring something special your way, I promise xx

Michelle - sweety thinking of you and hoping you have something special planned with O for his birthday

Jayne - thinking of you

Hope your all having a good Sunday.

DH and I went out for dinner last night, miss A had a sleep over at her grans and is still there, have to clean up and go and pick her up. It was good to go out and eat a whole meal without having a baby attached to the booby or one running to the toilet just as mummy takes her first bite. Having a house full of guests this arvo that are coming to meet Natalya.

A quick BF question - I have expressed but Natalya just wont take the bottle. I have tried two different types (tomee tipee and avent) and she just hates it and gags without taking a suck, so last night she didnt feed until I came back to mums to pick her up. Any tips on getting her to take the bottle - Id like to have this option so I can go out if I need to and not worry if she starving.