... i so understand that Maz, for me to think about being a grandparent personally means a different kind of notion as it means i reached elderly age & also it gives me a moment of release of the grieving feeling i get so much at times now and i make myself see a brighter side of the fence to escape that painful feeling.

DP & i have both said as DD is our only there is a likely chance we may not have grandchildren as i think there will be a day many years away where i will feel sad about that but sad about it for me and ' not ' DD as nothing would make me more than happier than for her to make choices that make her happy & having a child may not be something she wants ... and having a child may or may not be for her who know's, i just hope i'm around long enough to find out

... DD will ALWAYS be my " Bubba " no matter how old she is