Sending you lots of positive vibes and hugs Nae.

I can't really give much advice on Bf, I was never able too, so I'll leave that to the other ladies on here but I can tell you that after my DD was born I had some quite similar feelings towards her. It all came back to Lachlann. It was an unconscious thing that I didn't realise till much later when things did get easier. But I'm sure she picked up on my uneasiness. When we finally started to relax around each other thats when my "baby bliss" kicked in.

As PP have said please don't think you have to go through this alone. Ask someone who you feel at ease with to help you out, my gran helped me out more than my mum( I'm very close to my mum but felt she was smothering me this made me more anxious ergo DD was worse in my eyes).

All the best hun xox