Please don't judge me - just need a place to vent

[Mum2Romone]

I remember feeling exactly the same way at one point. my son would not take my right breast. it ended up engoreged and sore and he was happy to take the left always. I left him have the left and as the right was leaking when I was feeding, I expressed into a bottle( with my spare hand) it was easy because the breast was so full and after a little "let down" he took the right breast. Then I only offered him the right one for a couple of feeds.

Once they refuse one breast for a while the taste of the milk changes and it will become salty. Thats why sometimes you need to "let down" a breast if your baby refuses it. I learnt all this from a nice midwife at my local baby centre. Babies prefers the sweeter breast and will go for it everytime. So i suggest expressing a little (whilst feeding her on the right breast) and see how that goes. Maybe she will smell the difference and then try the right one.

It is both frustrating and upsetting for you because you can't make her happy but you need to understand that you are doing your best and motherhood is very hard.
Breastfeeding is tough work for some people and it will get easier. I promise

I was considering giving up bf and then my son relaxed and became used to it. You beautiful bub is only a week old and she has no idea what she wants.

I too remember crying in the shower. I think i cried for months.... it was the only time i had alone and it was like a release everytime i stepped under the water .lol
Your emotions are running so crazy right now. Give yourself some time to settle into being a mum. No one was born with these skills.... We all just do our best.

DH is probably just as freaked out as you are .... lean on him for support and talk about how you feel.

Welcome to motherhood. ! Its not easy but the rewards are priceless.
My son is still breastfeeding at a year....(time to wean him lol)

Talk to you soon