Wow, most of the posts have been removed, but I bet you aren't feeling very supported with your desire to keep your baby right now.

I would try getting your posts up to 50 & join the termination support group.

Only you can make your decision. Of course, your DH's feelings do need to be considered, but honestly, another baby won't break the bank.

It takes alot of years for kids to start costing you alot. Pretty much when they are teenagers & start eating you out of house & home!
By the time your baby is a teen, your older 2 will be close to moving out of home & would have jobs of their own.

I also op shop, for everything. As long as I keep the basic house hold bills down, we do ok. Watch the electricity & water usage.
I cook all our dinners & when money is tight I make the kids snacks for school etc.

Four kids isn't much different to 3