I'm not a LTTCer so can't relate to that but I can relate to pregnancy stress, the daily fear, the is this really real or is the universe going to play a big joke on me feeling, checking TP everytime, feeling yourself up to check your boobs still hurt etc, wishing I could go to sleep and wake up when it's time to push.

I don't know if this is the right thing to say here, but I spent the first trimester of my last pregnancy terrified of another mc. I put myself and my family through hell with my constant fears and tears. Holding my son at the end, I regretted that I had wasted that time in misery. It didnt change the outcome at all, it just spoiled some of the time we had together. I try and remind myself of that now, as I go through this pregnancy. I have no control over the outcome. All I can do is eat well, exercise, sleep as much as I can and send lots of positive, loving vibes to the baby. The rest will take care of itself. I also try to stay away from sad stories as I don't need any more reminders. I just need positive vibes.

Learning to let go of the control and fear is hard, but it is possible with practice. I think counselling is a great idea. I'm also finding meditation helpful. It would probably be more helpful is I did it more, but I figure even a little bit helps

Go easy on yourself. Take things daily or hourly if it helps. Maybe tell people you're happy but dont want to talk about it before the 12wk scan or something like that.