yay at finding this thread!

Hey guys, remember me? I was aka Danni

Well I am finally a mother, and Mason is 10 months old!! Its crazy...

I am really struggling though and I am dealing with guilt every single day. I wanted this baby so badly, and now I am not coping very well. He is so demanding, won't play alone, won't sleep....etc, etc etc.

Yesterday i said to my doctor in the utmost despair, "If I had have known this is what it was going to be like, I would never have tried for a baby".
I can;t believe I actually said that out aloud, but what if its true?

I love my son more than life itself but it sure is damn hard!