I am so sorry that you are going through this and I think I understand part of what you are going through.

I just realised today for myself that I need to stop feeling guilty and offering my friendship and respect to a man who does not appreciate or want it.

Its hard for me too, so hope it helps to know you are not alone.

We are women, capable of great things men can never achieve. Unfortunately it takes a rare man to appreciate how special we are.

You are a great mum and an awesomely strong woman to keep trying until now. I am not telling you to give up, you need to decide what you want. I found it helped to write down what I wanted and write down all the things I wanted to say. It let off a bit of steam so when i did talk about my needs and feelings they felt more ordered and I wasn't as emotional.