thankyou guys.

I let him read the thread and he straight away got defensive, telling me that i blow things out of proportion.

We chatted about the changes he hasnt made yet. The concert I understand now that it really is impossible for him to go. The board games, he told me he was only thinking aboutthat the other day. That convo made me feel more positive about us. So what did I do. I told him how sorry I am for being so mental and taking my depression out on him and I thanked him for putting up with me, then i shagged him! Now I see how mental doing all that really is!! Gosh, somebody slap me!

An ad for foster carers was on telly just before, and I mentioned that I look forward to fostering one day, something I have often mentioned to him. He sadi dont be ridiculous, let someone else do it. Well, that says a lot about him doesnt it.....I think you girls need to give me an intervention!

Kim - thanks for you support, it is nice to hear from someone I have 'known' for a while x

On a positive note, the guys at church have been a wonderful support, knowing that I have them each Sunday really gets me through the week.