No you're not, so stop thinking that right now! we've all had moments like that when you just wish you could leave them on a doorstep and it truly sucks. You've got so much to deal with atm that it's no wonder you are feeling extra tense and everything seems like it is caving in on you. Just take each day at a time OK? Perhaps tonight you and Isla can have a nice bath together and a bit of a play and I'm sure you will feel like you can keep on going