Right, so DH and I have been seperated for 7 months now, and there have been countless ups and downs, mainly downs sadly.

The set up has been that because DH lives and works an hour away, he stays in the spare room at my house 3 days a week to be with DS. This has for the most part, worked quite well.

I started seeing a psych every week which helped me sort through my issues, but i got to the point where it felt useless going to the shrink without DH there, so DH agreed to come to an appokintment with me for relationship counselling. The session went well and we felt good afterwards. DH agreed to try harder to share my interests and put my wants as high as his own. Things we agreed on were:

I agreed that we dont have to have any more children (not happy with this tho)
He agreed to spend a night each weekend at home with me playing a board game
He agreed to take me to the Jimmy Barnes concert in August
He agreed to frequent the cinema with me

Okay, so a month down the track this is wahts happened

I am still clucky and hate the thought of never having another bub
We have not played a single board game
He isnt taking me to the concert cause he is working that night (tho he is chucking a sickie next weekend to make it to a birthday party he is looking forward to)
He hasn't come to the cinema with me

hmmmmmm, something isnt right here.

What am i doing???? I was on Facebook this arvo and a friend started chatting with me online. Her first sentence was:"I am confused, are you and DH together again or not?" I explained that we are working on things and she wrned me not to get hurt again and not to get back together for DS sake. This got me to thinking how things were really going with us. I dont think they are going very well

My first thought was that I should talk to the psych again, but really he doesnt help. He doesnt let me bring emotions into things, he is very matter of fact, very male i guess thing is, I am emotional, I should have my needs met, I am not happy wiht thinking like a male and just looking at the facts, the facts dont switch my emotions off unfortunately. And yeah DH makes promises to change and to do more 'me' things, but he hasnt delivered on anything. And you know, I havent talked to him about all of these feelings yet, cause I know what his response will be. "You should have just told me what you wanted me to do and I will do it" The things is, I dont want to have to force him to do things just cause he feels guilty about making me upset. I want him to want to do things i want to do sometimes.

I went to Phantom of The Opera with him a couple of months ago cause he adores it and I wanted to share his passion. It turns out I enjoyhed it much to our surprise. However he wont make an efort for me, he sayd he will, but he doesnt!

Oh gosh I dont know what I expect to gain from posting all this