I want to say think you for everything guys , you are really nice here . realyreally nice.

I have been reading some pregnancy books namely the girlfriends guide to pregnancy, and what to expect when your expecting. I'm still scare about everything especially birth at the moment it seems so scary I dont want to do it because im afraid i'll hate the baby for making me hurt so much. I don't want to hate the baby. second is money (or lack of it) .

I still don't like the thought of being alone (with out a bf) because ive usually had one since i turned 17 and when i didnt i was surrounded with guys who wanted to see me. I dont think of my self as much of a catch : im over weight, pale, hairy, and mentally ill. I think i have pretty face most of the time and big boobs they must have liked the boobs. It will be strange not having guys want to have sex with me. i guess its safe that way, can't get pregnant again if no one will have sex with you.