Feeling alone is just no good, so I'm glad you're posting here.

I can only repeat what others have said about contacting SIDS for someone to talk to- their 24 hour phoneline is staffed by parents who have experienced loss as well, so you will be speaking to someone who can relate to what you're going through. You can also get free one-on-one counselling.

I am not looking forward to when my DH returns to work, fills me with fear at being alone, and how will I fill my days when I had planned on filling them with being a mother?....So I am feeling for you and you are also in my thoughts .