:hugs: again....
The road you walk is yours and that's why it feels so lonely... But know that we are holding your hands and having cyber cuppas and cyber hugs.
I find sometimes it helps to think "one day this will just be a memory".

I so very much understand how you are feeling. When we lost our daughter in May 2005 it took until NOvember to conceive again and then I had an early miscarriage. I then conceived and as you know lost our son and then another early miscarriage. Like you I think sometimes - my baby should be *this* old but here I am doing it all over again, every month peeing on sticks and praying for a miracle... I truly understand and I wish I could make it better.

I wish I could find some profound words that can make you smile but I can't. Just know I am here and please BELIEVE that you will be pregnant again soon....