thanks everyone ... I know we all have good days and bad days, but lately they all seem bad . To friends and family I put on a brave face and say "its ok ... I am lucky that I have one" but really I am feeling completely different inside . I just want to scream. I want to shout at all those people who have children and then don't look after them, I want to physically hit people who say "it will happen" (how do they know?) and if one more person tries to tell me "if it is meant to be it will be" (what does that mean anyway??) I think I will clock them over the head.

There, I said it - that is how I am really feeling. Frustration is the only word I can think of that comes close to how I feel.

I hope you are all having a much better time than I am at the moment, and ... I hope that we all do realise our dreams in here. M/c is a very hard thing to deal with, whether it be once or 6 times ... but if there is some hope out there , then I hope it settles on the people in this forum who really really need something positive.