Mummy2chloe

hello chicken i am feeling alot better today it sounds like you are totally on my wave lengh of thinking its nice when someone understands. what you were saying about not being pregers it is so annoying when people say just relax it will happen or dont think about it so much how can you not when its the one thing you want more than anything and as to the AF reminding you everytime you go to the toilet that is hard as when i had to go into the hospital to give birth to brooklyn they put these tablets up me and she said when you start bleeding it means things are starting to happen so i went to the toilet and on my way there was a bunch of healthy pregnant people having a hospital tour to see where they will be going when they give birth anyway i went to the toilet and they smiled at me and i thought i am not hear for a good reason so i went to toilet and saw the blood and all i wanted to do was curl in a ball and cry but no i could see a the bottom of the door shadows and hear the people who were on there tour so i held it in and now when i have my af all i think about is that and the fact i havent falen again. god it is hard when i think in detail of what i had to go though it was a long few months of scans appointments and the birth and then the funeral and that i just wish it was somehting i never had to do. i went to my sisters last night and i told her a few things she forgot it was brooklyns due date so did dh but she helped alot also felling so down about my weight my sister said i sound like i am full of guilt and blaming myself for absoultly everything and sound loney which i am not but at the same time i feel like i try to deal with things on my own if that makes sense but she is gonna diet with me which will help and i will go and buy some O tests today as i will be O soon so hopefully i will fall this month. sorry to rave on again anyway i am also hear for you if you are feeling crapy about your cycle not working it is so dissapointing and like you say people really dont help with there insensitive comments they proably mean well but they just dont understand. i had better go as i am finnishing work now so have to take puppy for walk and then get harvey from school speak soon lovey.

Munchy xxx