Oh hun I wish I had advice on how to move on, last yr was the hardest yr of my life, i've never felt so low and alone which i'm sure you are probably feeling right now. Wish I could give you a big hug. All I can say is cry as much as you need to, talk about what has happened with your partner, how you are feeling, etc. For months I was affected. We would be doing something and for no reason I would burst into tears because I was thinking about what happened. All I can say is keep talking, don't feel as though you just have to get on with it, don't feel like you shouldn't be crying etc. If you need to say it then say it, I think the best thing for healing is to talk about it, keeping those feelings in and not sharing them just let's them eat you up. I found BB a huge support, the women on here are amazingly supportive. If you just want to vent, post your feelings and plenty of women will surround you with love.
It really is such a hard thing and unless you've been through it I don't think you quite understand. Just lean on the ppl around you.
Thinking of you hun xox