Oh Starbright, you have been through so much, your pain must have been unbearable. I really hope there is a rainbow heading your way very soon. Thank you for helping me, I feel so much better today than this time last week. I have taken on board all the good advice from this forum, and now I feel like I can at least talk about it to a few more people (certain relatives excluded!) I will keep a lookout for your progress, take care.
PS you definitely weren't rambling!