*las* my friend got the message that I wasn't going to let her be involved and she was OK with it (she had to be really) I actually performed my little ceremony last week, I found a party shop and bought 1 helium filled yellow balloon, I had printed off a little poem from the net, and then went down to the river in Penrith and sat very quiet for about 20 mins, I read my poem, then rolled it up and tied it to the balloon and sat there for about another 5 mins and then I just let go, I cried for about 5 mins and then I was fine and I just feel so much better for it and was so glad that I was on my own.
Herbie I find it really hard to catch up when I have missed a few days too, sometimes so much can go on in here even after I have logged in in the morning, then I come in again at night and can't believe how many posts there are to read, but I think it is great though. I had a really nasty UTI the other week and I was in so much pain I can't imagine having to go through that frequently it must really suck.

Hello to everyone else, hope you have all had a great easter weekend.

I think that I am going to cave and test tomorrow morning LOL I just can't help myself!