Hey girls,

just an update, i finally got in to see a Dr, i went to a different one then my normal Dr.
I had to explain to him about my history and what has been going on etc, he litterally drilled me for answers and why this and why that, and why i had waited so long before seeing a Dr! OMG
So he did a external exam, and then a half a pap smear (just without swabs) then he did an internal exam (by this point im really uncomfortable), but i knew he was doing what he thought was best.
I also did the Dr's hpt, came back -ive.
He said after the exams that we are to assume im not pg, but he wants me to go for a bt and a pelvic and vaginal ultrasound. As he thinks its quite possible that i may still have some of jan m/c stuck in there and that i need to be thoroughly checked out and make sure. im not allowed to get my bt results til tomorrow, but i had to make my own app for the ultrasound, to find out i cant get in til thursday.
I rang the Dr back to let him know this and the receptionist said that would be fine as Dr wouldnt have expected the u/s results back tomorrow? WTF??? he said to me to book an app with him tomorrow, which i did, but i couldnt get my bt results back til then either as he wanted to read both results together and for me to assume the bt will come back -ive.
Im sooooo scared, confused, very emotional and angry at the same time
WTF is going on???
He wrote on the u/s piece of paper that my cervix is closed? is this a good sign? he also wrote there was no tenderness when he was pushing and prodding, but HELLOOOOOOO there was and i told him, i was just wound up about having some strange Dr's fingers up me that i didnt comment at all through that exam!
I guess im just a no hopper, im never going to be pg, im going to have problems like this all the time, and its never going to happen to ME......

sorry rant over, thanks for keeping an eye out for me