Hi girls. This is my first time to use a forum (yes I?m a virgin forum user at 34 ? pretty sad I know). However, I?ve read hundreds of forums over the past few months. This forum is the one that I continue to come back to because of the love and support that you ladies embrace each other with.

I have been trying not to bother people with the emotional roller coaster ride that I?m living through at the moment, but in this forum you ladies have shown me that you can just let out all your emotions and everyone totally understands the feelings each other is experiencing. I must admit that I have been crying and laughing with you ladies in silence for too long.

I come here with an open (but broken) heart. Like everyone here I lost my angel, to an ectopic pregnancy. The devastation is unbelievable. The doctors have given the green light to start trying again, but unfortunately we were unsuccessful this month (our first month trying again), which has started another flood of emotions. Poor DH.

Then I found out that my friend is pregnant and her baby is due the same week our baby was. You ladies have been talking about the ?ugly cry? this week. Well I?ve gotta tell you my poor DH copped the biggest ugly cry this week that I have ever done in public. I felt like Linda Blair on the Exorcist with my head trying to uncontrollably swing sideway while I?m making this horrific noise (and at times no noise just a huge open mouth), not to mention what my face must look like. It was this incident that has lead me here, because I know that I need the support of you ladies who understand where I?m at emotionally and to help me heal. I also want to support you girls too, because I believe that is part of my healing process.

Thanks for listening. Sorry my post turned into a short novel. I would just like to give you all a big for all your loses and the crazy times we are all going through.