I love you girls so much I don't know where I would be if I didn't find this website !!! I have had time to think and get my mind 2gather and I do want to ttc again in about 6 months I think my body and mind should be ready then. I get so sad when I see pregnant women now and I know its mean but I went to drop off my doctor notes at work today I seen a girl I work with who is preganat and I just got so mad because the childs father is also sleeping with 4 or 5 other girls I work with one of which he also just got pregnant too but he talk her into aborting the baby that just makes so mad !!! I keep asking myself why my babies don't make it and why me and DH can't have a little family because we want it so bad and I'm my mom's onlys girl and wants me have a baby too and my mother in law I keep feeling like its some wrong with me I'm going to find a good FS and find out what's going on so when I do ttc again I know I did everything I could to make sure my baby makes it I know this kinda long and all over the place but I just need to get all this stuff out ... this has been extra hard because the day I started to m/c DH had left for training I'm still kinda sad but I know only time and me having my forever baby will heal me and even than I will still look back and be sad ... ok let me stop here ladies again I love you all and a extra for ruthie and jen ...