anneebee3 - welcome hun. I found the support of this thread a life-saver when I was TTC and even tho I am now pg I find it hard to leave and try to still support the girls as much as I can. The memory of what I emotionally went thru each month before my BFP finally came is still so raw and fresh in my memory. I don't think you ever forget the extreme desperation, frustration, anger, disappointment, hopelessness feelings associated with TTC, let alone enduring the loss of an angel before you were able to hold them in your arms. Not even what I said here adequately describes the feelings. I know about that horrible, horrible, horrible cry. I'm so sorry for your loss and sorry you needed to come here in the first place. I hope your time here is one of healing, stay as long as you need and then some. Big hugs sweet - we know what you are going thru.