Hi everyone,

I've only just got back from Sydney, & haven't had a chance to catch up on all the posts, but I do want to thank everyone for their posts throughout the week - I hope to catch up with personals over the next couple of days for those that I don't get a chance to catch up with now.

Acria - I just want to say we're thinking of you and hoping & praying for a sticky little one for you. I can understand how you're feeling at this moment...am going through a very similar experience. Be brave - don't give up. We're here for you.

Beaksie - just a quick hi & to say I'm glad that AF finally showed up. I know that the 'not knowing' is worse than when AF actually arrives - I'm glad that you've been relieved of that anxiety and can start afresh this month (hopefully there will be a BFP at the end of it for you as you deserve it so much). We all deserve it.

LSB & Lee - I saw that AF arrived for you & really hope that next month is your month.


As for me, I'm in no-man's land at the moment. So I shouldn't really be posting on the TWW thread as I'm not theoretically in the TWW. After getting the BFPs (albeit very light) last Sunday which was CD25 of 28 day cycle, I then had AF arrive with a vengeance on Tuesday (CD 27 of 28). My cycles have been 28 days exactly since my D&C in July, so the fact that my cycle is messed up is a little disheartening. When AF arrived, DH & I were of course disappointed, but ready to just move on. I really believe I experienced a chemical pregnancy, as a few things were different for me this month - I didn't have the normal sore BBs leading up to AF (which I know is opposite for most women), I had brown spotting CD 24 & CD25 which I've not had in previous cycles (and assume this was implantation spotting), and my temps also dropped around implantation time. I also got the metallic taste in my mouth that I experienced when I was pregnant in June/July. I also got a light BFP on the ultrasensitive (midstream) HPTs from LC on CD 25, and have never had an evap line on these tests ever. So I am fairly convinced that I've had an early miscarriage when AF arrived early on CD27. However, I still have the metallic taste in my mouth, and I tested again yesterday & today (with the same ultrasensitive HPTs) and am still getting very light second lines. With my first miscarriage, I kind of suspected that something was wrong as my symptoms (ie sore BBs & metallic taste in mouth) just disappeared before the bleeding started a few days later. I would have thought that if AF came with full force earlier in the week (including clots), there would be very little chance that a little one would have survived. But I wouldn't have thought that I would have enough pg hormones left in me to still keep getting light BFPs & have the metallic taste in my mouth. I have an appointment to see my GP on Tuesday night - my guess is that she will do a blood test, but I really don't know what else to expect after that. Would you think that I would have to go through another D&C even though the pregnancy was so early on and even though I had what I thought was a full AF??? It doesn't make sense why I'd be still getting BFPs if I hadn't lost everything when AF came.

Ignore my ticker, because I don't know where the hell I am with my cycle at the moment, especially if I need to go for another D&C sometime this week. I'm trying to remain positive in all of this though - as sad as I am about losing another little one, I know in my heart that this little one was obviously not meant to be here on earth with DH & I, and both our little ones are safe in heaven. I know that I will have good days & bad days, but in all of this and through all of this DH & I will be better parents...one day.