Oh Klee honey, I am so sorry for the loss of your darling little girl Phoebe. What a wonderful name you gave her.
I lost my son Harrison (my first child also) at 36w2days on 6 October last year. I think it was a few months before I actually went an entire day without disolving into a river of tears. It hurts so bad, I know how that pain feels and I am here to support you with your pain. I didn't have a cord accident, but other ladies here have, and I am sure that as soon as they see your post they will gather around you and help you try to make sense of this tradgedy.
As Michelle and Trish said, grief doesn't have a timetable and it is unpredictable. What you are felling is totally normal, I truly understand how you feel when you said you have an empty heart. My heart aches everyday for my little Harry, I don't think that will ever go away. What I can tell you though is that the intense grief that you are experiencing will lessen a little with time. You will all of a sudden realise that you have made it through a day without tears. It doesn't mean that you have forgotten Phoebe, she is your daughter and you will never forget her.
Just thinking back I remember how much of a blur those first few weeks were. Feeling like you are in an emotional bubble is a very accurate way to explain it.
Just know that we are all here for you and will take you under our wings and help you walk this painful path.
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