Dear Klee,

I am truly sorry that you have to experience the pain of losing your little girl, Phoebe.

It has been 8 months since I lost my little girl, Lucia to a cord accident and I still think about her every day. I don't believe that will ever stop. There are times though when I think about what she would be like on her first birthday, who she would look like and what it would be like to hold her and I can smile without disolving into tears. Today is not one of those days!

I found a counsellor who had lost a child and had the same values and beliefs as myself and she has been invaluable. I was able to share my 'shameful' thoughts and not feel judged for my anger.

You love Phoebe and will continue to love her for the rest of your life, and that hurts soooo much because you can not physically show her.

Like the others have said, do not expect too much of yourself to be in a different place. From what I am learning, this is a very long journey that isn't a straight path. It is hard to recover from a broken heart and you are in a very tender stage of physical exhaustion and emotional distress, still processing that Phoebe has gone.

Please feel free to express every raw emotion you have, here at BB. As I have found, they really are wonderful, courageous women who will only support you in your grief.

Again, I am deeply saddened you precious little girl has died.

Lynnette x :hugs: