I hope you guys don't mind me posting here. I am feeling really lost and am not sure where to go from here, even though I have only had 2 miscarriages.

The first was 14 Oct, it was a missed m/c and I should have been 8w 4d but it only measured 7w. I had misoprostol twice over a week as I couldn't handle having a D & C. I got pg again in Dec, and should be 5w 2d today. I knew something wasn't right and have just had it confirmed. My HCG last Fri was 182 and yesterday only 73, and my symptoms are now diminishing. I am not bleeding yet and just wish it would start to get it over with.

I just got back from the doctor's. He told me to get another BT to check on HCG levels, and I have a form for another one for a week's time if I am still not bleeding, and I may have to get a scan done to see if there are any 'products of conception' still there, and then maybe a D & C. I tried asking him why this is happening and what I should do now, what all my hormone levels were, etc, and he said he didn't know and could refer me to genetic counselling, but there would be a long wait, and that he wasn't going to answer my questions because 'this is a fit-in appointment and I don't want my schedule to be out all day'.

I told him I am very sorry I took up his time and will go elsewhere next time and slammed the door on my way out. I couldn't even drive home I was crying so much and now I don't know what to do.

I had the BT and have to phone for the results later today, but the last thing I want to do is speak to that ***** again. I can't believe someone can be so horrible in what is such an awful situation. Now I don't know what to do, what the answers are and where we go from here.

I just can't stop crying and I can't get through to DH.

I had 13 vials of blood taken after the last m/c as I demanded tests be done. All came back normal - no ANA problems, no lupus, and I don't even know what else he tested, but it was heaps and all was ok. Of course I don't know if anything was borderline, as he doesn't have time to answer my questions.

I just don't know what to do. We want a family so badly and I have no idea what to do now. Deb - thanks for all the info you have posted, I have read it all and had so many Qs to ask my dr about it all, but obviously I have gotten nowhere.

What do I do now? How will I ever have the family I have always wanted?

I am young, fit, healthy, not overweight, don't smoke or drink, no family history of anything, and I did all the right things through my pregnancies. We fell straight away with both pregnancies so obviously have not trouble conceiving, so what do we do now?