Hi Everyone. I am back from Tasmania. Thank you all for your lovely thoughts and words in memory of Nathaniel. Last Wed ended up being quite a nice day - we got up early and went to the beach - the sunrise was not so great but I am still glad we did it. We then went to church for a 9am service and then straight to the airport to catch our flight. I think the day was not overly difficult was due to the fact that we had taken the time to remember Nathaniel and give ourselves the space we needed. Tasmania was lovely and it made me realise how much we needed a break from the everyday.

Today we had our 12 week scan and all was great news. The baby is measuring 12 weeks 3 days and had a good strong heartbeat. All was good and was a great relief. We now start having weekly scans with my ob until I am either sick of them or more relaxed.

Good luck to everyone else having a scan or test this week.

Jo - I will definitely be thinking of you this Saturday. I can recommend doing something special for Jack - even if it is just something little like lighting a candle - as I do believe this helped me. I still found the days leading up to the EDD difficult but I found I would have a good cry and then keep going - rather than it being the start of a deeper grief. So please take care of yourself and I hope your DH proves to be supportive.

I will write more later - thanks again to you all for being so wonderful.