Barbara - I will be thinking of you today as well. I think it is wonderful that the hospital is having a service. Whilst it will be emotionaly for you, it is also a beautiful way for Anthony to be remembered. Take care.

I am so nervous about my u/s. I find during the days that lead up to the scans, I get very nervous and start thinking the worst. I know it is not helping me, but it is so hard to control my thoughts sometimes. I am praying so hard that all will be ok.

Simba - you mentioned in the PAL thread that you were annoyed with some reactions from relatives about your pregnancy. I understand that 100%. We have only told a handful of people, and when we told them we stressed that this is a very emotional and stressful time, so whilst we are excited we are not ready for people to make a fuss about us. I think a lot of people view our pregnancies as a 'cure' for our losses. We know that there is never a cure, but I guess it makes people feel more comfortable to think we are now 'ok'. I am nervous about telling more people as I know I will get that 'good now everything is ok' reaction from some people. It will be the same people who have asked me if the dr has given me the ok to start TTCing again - what a personal question!!!

Okay that is my rant.

TM - I am glad that you find encouragement here. I know that I should probably move out of this thread, but I really like being here with all of you. I would rather we all move through this journey together.

Jo - did you get to the dr this week? Or is it this coming Friday? I can't believe you are able to keep it from your DH! I would be so obvious that my DH would guess. I am hopeless with that sort of stuff.