Trying to Conceive after Late Loss, Still Birth or Recurrent Miscarriage June '08 #2

[Tildy]

Hello ladies!

Jo - I'm crossing my fingers for everything to turn out okay and for you to be able to make it through the worry and the stress.

Sryan - be patient with your weight. Remember that natural weight fluctuations (you had a meal that was big in volume or a lot of water, you are about to have your period, muscles, hormones, etc.) make it so that day to day or even week to week weight gains don't have to mean anything. Keep up your good exercise habits and healthy eating habits and I think things will start to fall into place!

Katiegirl - I know what you mean about dreaming about the temping and about it being addictive! When I crawled into bed last night I saw the thermometer lying there and put it in my mouth, and though "wait, why did I do that?" And during the night I dreamt that I took my temp and that it was 36.9. I woke up and thought, "Good, it's still up!" and then realized that it was just a dream. Luckily, my temp was 36.6, so it WAS still up. I know what you mean about trying to trust your instincts as well -- I keep reminding myself that the fact that my chart is hard to understand doesn't change the fact that we've been BDing consistently every 2-3 days, and that that's what worked last time. I therefore wonder if I maybe shouldn't chart, because I'm such a worrier that it seems to only serve to worsen my mental condition, and doesn't actually improve our chances... but if we end up having trouble conceiving I want to have info in hand to show the doctor.

Rozzie -- Yay ! That is fabulous! My eyes started to tear up a little there. Yup, we do seem to be on the same cycle... lost our bubs a few days apart, spotting a few days apart... I really really hope that it'll be BFP a few days apart! I know what you mean about being relieved that your sister had a girl. My friends that had babies around and since my M/C had boys, and while I didn't know if mine was a boy or a girl, something inside me just says I'll have a girl -- and I don't want them stealing the names I've picked out!

The spotting I had yesterday is not there today, and my temp was still up this morning, so I'm really crossing my fingers. It's still early in the day though, and I'm dreading every trip to the toilet. If the spotting returns and I get my period "on schedule" on Friday, then a lot of things seem to be pointing towards me having a progesterone deficiency...

Have a look at my chart: 219aae Ovulation Charts . You can see how it seems a bit haywire to me. I was severely depressed and sleep deprived at the beginning of my cycle, so that might explain the severe fluctuations. CM suggests I ovulated on day 13 (and those two patches of W CM after that were probably because of the BD the days before), which would be perfect since my cycle is regularly 26 days. But FF has set my O day at 16, then changed it to 18, then changed it to "possibly 16", then changed it back to 16. So if it's my period that started already with spotting 2 days ago, plus the fact that I started bleeding already the very day I expected my period when I WAS pregnant, the fact that I didn't have much morning sickness, etc... wouldn't be good signs. I want to call the doctor and ask, because it seems like low progesterone is easy to test for and easy to fix, but I hate trying to get them to listen and take me seriously...

We let out cat Ada out again today for the first time in a couple weeks, so I hope she comes back tonight and doesn't immediately re-do her 4-5 day disappearance!

Big hugs to everyone!