Hi everyone

Beata70 - thank you. I am better today but it has been hell!!! I just kept thinking about how we should have been celebrating with Zachary (he would have been 5 months old). I just can't believe he is not here. Sending you big back

dd0207 - I had moments of tears too and as soon as I did, everyone left the room! I just wanted some comfort but I just don't think anyone knew how to deal with it. I am sending you the biggest

AngelLukesMum - thank you. I am finding it hard to sat goodbye too. being pg with Zachary was the best thing that has ever happened to me and I loved being pg. Then it was all taken away 2 weeks before we thought we would be having our little boy.... I am so sad and hurt and angry - still.

I do hope that 2009 is a better year for all of us. We certainly deserve some happiness.