Just wanted to send everyone my love and thoughts. Christmas is a difficult time when you lose your little ones.
I will not be posting anywhere under the Loss section in 2009 (my NYR) so wanted to take this opportunity to wish everyone all the very best in TTC and send my deepest heart felt wishes that all your baby dreams come true.
Beata - Hun I wish you all the love and hugs in the world hope we can be buddies in the same due date group
To all my wonderful BB friends, hello and big hugs.
I wasn't able to log on the past few days as DH left his laptop at work Xmas Eve so I made him go and get it today because a few days without a dose of you all it just way way too much.
I am guessing all of you have a very emotional Xmas day so not even going to bother asking how it went. I cried and cried all day long and was very upset that noone bothered to ask me why - I know that they know why I was sad but nobody even thought to acknowledge my sadness or mention Sebastian, they just ignored me! I am so upset and cranky.
Xmas this year was just horrid and I am so glad it is over. Now we just have to get thru NYE and hope for a more positive year ahead for us all.
Jo! I wasn't able to spy on you the past few days but was thinking of you so much. How are you? Oh how I am praying your cervix is staying nice and long and strong. Are you still in hospital? Tell me everything!
Nae, I so wish and hope for us to be in the 'same due date ' group !!!!! That would be just so fantastic, fingers crossed hun Huge hugs coming your way !
Diana, I'm so sorry hun that you had a crappy day . No one really asked me about how I was going on xmas day apart from my DF's SIL, which was a total sorprise as I don't really get along with her LOL. Maybe it was because she'd had some wine and was feeling fearless ???!!
Hammi, I have such mixed feelings about 2008. On one hand, it was such an exciting year for me, mentally preparing myself for IVF, then getting pregnant on the first cycle, anticipating all these weird and wonderful things to happen to my body, only for it all to be cut so short in October. So it's been a magical and such a sad year for me all in one, it's a very bittersweet feeling. I can't wait until 2009 begins, but then I feel like I'm saying goodbye to the year my first and only baby was born...don't know, I have mixed feelings...
Beata70 - thank you. I am better today but it has been hell!!! I just kept thinking about how we should have been celebrating with Zachary (he would have been 5 months old). I just can't believe he is not here. Sending you big back
dd0207 - I had moments of tears too and as soon as I did, everyone left the room! I just wanted some comfort but I just don't think anyone knew how to deal with it. I am sending you the biggest
AngelLukesMum - thank you. I am finding it hard to sat goodbye too. being pg with Zachary was the best thing that has ever happened to me and I loved being pg. Then it was all taken away 2 weeks before we thought we would be having our little boy.... I am so sad and hurt and angry - still.
I do hope that 2009 is a better year for all of us. We certainly deserve some happiness.
Ladies, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. MY DH and I had an awful Christmas. Much worse than last year. It took me a long time to decide but I went home to visit my family over Christmas. My brother and SIL were going to have their one month old home over Christmas so I knew how emotional it was going to be for me. It was a 6 hour drive in blowing snow. When we got there my DH was taking our bags up to the extra room at my parents house and my mom told him to take everything into the office instead. She said that my brother and SIL decided to stay with my parents at the last minute. I was so upset. I might have been ready to meet their little girl but I was not ready to spend 3 days in the next room. I should have had my little boy with us last year and I should have had my 4 month old little girl this year. I cried about it all night and in the morning I asked my sister if I could stay with her. She told me that I could not stay with them and to stop acting like a spoiled brat. She also said that I will lose the rest of my family (not just my babies) if I don't stop avoiding people! I couldn't even respond to her I have never been so hurt. I was so mad at everyone, myself, my mom for not telling me about my brother and sil, and my sister for never being there for me when I needed her. My DH and I went home that afternoon on Christmas Eve. I spent all day on Christmas crying and I am still not recovered from my family not even trying to understand what I am going through. I am not too sure how the family is ever going to recover from this Christmas. Everyone left with hurt feelings.
Last edited by Laney; December 28th, 2008 at 06:17 AM.
) so wanted to take this opportunity to wish everyone all the very best in TTC and send my deepest heart felt wishes that all your baby dreams come true.
Huge hugs coming your way ! 
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