Humph! Yes, while on holidays with my family DH and I found ourselves to be the default babysitters for my brother and sister's children. Just by the fact that we don't have any of our own to occupy ourselves with, and we're kind of fun (well, DH is, I was being a cow), the kids just stuck around us and their parents knicked off whenever they could. Boooo hissss!

But you're right Beata, 2008 wasn't all bad. We did all get to be mothers even if we had to learn the hardest feeling that can come with it.

My new year resolution is to TRY to not impose my feelings on everyone else, accept that no one will feel Hamish's loss the way I do (except you guys), and to open my heart to love another child.

I am now CD25. My BBs are kind of swelling and feel heavier. I remember with Hamish I noticed they got more veiny before I tested so of course I've been peering hard at them to see if there are veins. There aren't really but they do feel heavy. A sign? A sign? Hee.

Laney, I forgot to wish you happy birthday. 27 is my favourite age. My birthday wish for you is to simply be able to bring an earth baby home.

I'm back at work today and procrastinating hard.