Hi all. I wish it was under 8 weeks more like under 9! Not much of a difference but I am starting to get impatient. I feel like I have been pregnant since last July. It sounds like I am complaining but more a case of Mondayitis I think.
Tildy - work is always so hard especially for all of us - we have to work, deal with our ongoing grief and then be pregnant again and worried. I can honestly say that since I have found out I was pregnant again, I have worked at less than 50% capacity. I feel bad about it, but my mind has just been elsewhere, namely on this baby. I pulled out of a conference back in April (I think) as it was in Alice Springs and I couldn't bare the idea of being so far away if something happened - plus I had not announced the pregnancy and it would have been hard to hide it. I came up with a good excuse and no one questioned me, but when I did announce the preg they all said they had been suspicious when I cancelled! Take care of yourself first and foremost - work can always wait. Yes I feel bad that I am leaving this job knowing I have not done my best work of late, but in the scheme of things..it is pretty minor.
Sue - very happy to hear that your bleeding has stopped and that you are feeling nauseous! Excellent news. Funny how we all take delight in hearing one of us is vomiting or dry reaching!
I love the idea you all have of the veggie patch. I think it will be very therapeutic for you.
Also, I saw an article in the Herald Sun (I think Friday's paper) about miscarriage and stillbirth. It was titled 'The Loneliest Grief' or something like that. I have always said that loss of a child during pregnancy is the loneliest grief as very few people can relate. It was interesting to note that it said 1 in 4 women suffer a mc and 1 in 20 a stillbirth (I guess this covers late loss as well) - that number is so high but it is still not something people talk about. It made me happy to see that this grief and loss was getting some coverage. It was talking about Bonnie Babes organising a National Baby Day for 17 Oct.
Lan - you made me laugh, but there is no baby cooking just yet, give me another week! I have been saying to DH this garden has to be ready before I am pregnant again, hence the feeling of urgency. I need this little corner of sanctuary to immerse myself in once the hard work is done I will rest up I promise!
Sue - We haven't got a huge patch of veggies but we have - Silverbeet, cabbage, cauliflower, strawberries(crappy), beetroot, capsicum, spring onions, pineapple (scattered throughout all the garden, will take years!), rocket and loads of various herbs. I just love having gardens around me though it just makes such a difference.
Father's Day was a fairly quiet day at home for all of us, was nice just to potter.
sounds like everyone's doing well, hoping for another round of BFPs this month. I would also like to add my name to the garden lovers, I love our gardens, this year we embarked on a very ambitious re-landscaping project that consumes all our spare time but it's looking amazing.
I had my first day back at work today. It wasn't too bad, most people just said hi and welcome back. My boss was really nice, asked me if I was sure I was ready and if I needed to go home early or anything to feel free. I teared up a bit in front of him but that was inevitable I guess, he told me not to apologise so that was nice. I also told him I was pregnant again and there would probably be a lot of appointments and I couldn't guarantee what would happen and he was nice about that too. There was a girl there that I hadn't met because she'd been away on deployment, and she asked if I'd been on leave, that was a bit awkward. Also I replied to an email I'd gotten a few weeks back and apologised for how late it was, saying I'd been on leave. The girl wrote back and said she was jealous... ha! If only she knew!
I'm glad the first day is over but I did not enjoy the 6am alarm or the M/S at my desk when I would rather be lying on the couch, but hopefully in a couple of weeks that will dissipate. Feel so crappy now DH's is making me scrambled eggs for dinner.
Rozzie I am glad your first day is over, it is often such a hurdle to get past.
OK girls, I have done it, I am now on Facebook! You can find me under Helen Salmon, There is a lovely (not) blue tarp in the background, have to say I am a bit nervous about having my photo on the internet! I will endeavor to go back and get all your names, but feel free to get in before me.
I'm in the gardening club as well, or at least I'd like to be. I want to build up a new little garden now when I'm on vacation. I was going to paint the "baby room" but decided that painting while pregnant is not good; I'll save it for maternity leave somehow or other... so instead I figured I'd build up a little garden around our (barren) apple tree. Nothing nearly as ambitious as Helen (even if she does call it "not huge"!). I mostly just want to put a ring of stones around, take up the grass and put in soil, and perhaps put some flower bulbs down later in the fall or whenever one does such things. I'm so terrible though with plants, and so is DH. We have, say, a 30% success rate. You should see the pots of herbs I planted before the summer. My cilantro is red for some reason, the dill grew about 3 foot tall stems with no actual usuable dill, and the parsley stayed about 1 inch tall even though it's still alive. And Helen is growing PINEAPPLE? Guess you guys have a very different climate than us,
Good job on your first day back, Rozzie. It sounds like you have a good boss for the situation. I also had to do that same sort of explaining to mine -- "I'm going back to 100% today but BTW I'm pregnant again so I'm going to be off to a whole lot of appointments all the time." The comment about being jealous that you were on leave is just the kind of foot people tend to put in their mouths. One of my old coworkers called me at home on a Saturday morning once and woke me up, and she said "Ahh, sleeping late, I guess that's the kind of luxury us people with little kids don't have!" I wanted to smack her, actually.
Paula -- I think it will work out okay at work, at least for the next 4 weeks, since I have 3 weeks of vacation starting next week! I won't be able to get any better information on what my duties are until after that since the guy who decides is on vacation now, but I have at least decided what I will be doing for the next 7 or so weeks in a way that I feel is best for me and doesn't require me trying to be more than one human being. Right now I've just come back from starting to set up my new lab, so I now have three different "offices" and three computers. I must be special. :P
Lan -- I'll have to see what can be done around the 17 week mark, as that will also be around the same time as Beiron's EDD. I don't think I'm going to be in a position to travel a lot, but my stress will only increase in another way if I feel like I'm not taking all opportunities to learn my new job. However, the leader for my new project thinks I'll be fine, since I have worked with similar stuff this whole time and the other guy is brand new, just started this week. That means I might not have to be in Stockholm so much after all but rather just a day or two and then come back home to my new lab. Much nicer to be a 1.5 km bike ride from home than a 200 km train ride.
I'm feeling 100% symptom-less. I even slept only 5 hours night before last but still managed a whole normal day without a nap. It's hard not to think, "Oh no, I feel good -- what's wrong with me!"
Hi all. I have to let Tildy know that my gardening efforts are less than stellar as well. We live in a high-rise apartment in the inner city and I have about 5 pots on our balcony that originally had lavender and a variety of herbs. They now sit empty except for the potting mix and simply collect dust. I do well at the start with plants, but then it all goes down hill. I am looking forward to having a garden at some point in the future. I would love to move early next year to a house with a proper outdoor area. Tildy I totally understand your 'oh no I feel ok etc' nerves - symptoms can be so confusing and stressful. I had basically none with this pregnancy. I am sure all is well and as you have already stated, this preg is different to Beiron as you bled constantly during his preg. Your ticker is moving along nicely.
Today is my last official day at work. I can't believe it has finally come around. Due to working on my own, it doesn't feel overly festive but I am going out for lunch so that will break the day a little.
There has been such a good run of BFPs in here of late, I am sure they will continue for Sept and Oct. Sending out positive vibes to everyone!
Well, just got my results, the receptionist stated from the Dr "No action required". I asked her for the results of thyroid etc and she couldnt tell me individual results. Bloody hell!!! I like the figures, not just that everything is OK.
Rozzie - I am so glad your first day at work went OK. I think the hardest thing is walking through that door and facing everyone, once the day is over, you kind of feel relieved that you got through it. It sounds like you have a very nice boss. I am very fortunate with that also, my boss is very supportive. Though they don't know I am pregnant at the moment. I told them that I wont be doing IVF until November now.....
Tildy - How are you feeling today??? I know what you mean about symptomless. Yesterday I felt nausea all day, even was dry reaching when I got home, but today I feel fine and of course you start to panic and hoping all is OK.
Katie - Wow last day at work. I hope you have a good one. It must be so exciting. Are you intending on going back to work after bubs is born???? or are you deciding on that later???
to everybody else and hoping all is well for you all.
I won't be able to get any better information on what my duties are until after that since the guy who decides is on vacation now, but I have at least decided what I will be doing for the next 7 or so weeks in a way that I feel is best for me and doesn't require me trying to be more than one human being. Right now I've just come back from starting to set up my new lab, so I now have three different "offices" and three computers. I must be special. :P
to everybody else and hoping all is well for you all.
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