Beata - it is a lifeline.... some of us just can't be away for too long huh?

Gigi - I can only imagine the enormous effort it takes each cycle, to build up hope and then be crushed. You have my pure and unadulterated admiration girl. My Bestie, is Long Term TCC with 2 m/c. She is so stoic most of the time but I see ( and at other times she lets me in) her struggle so much. I wish that I could make it better for her, and it makes me so sad that everytime she sees me, that as happy as she is for me, a part of her is just shrivelling inside because I am right now what she so badly wants. But still she comes and still she supports me. Pretty amazing friend huh?

I spent a lot of my most "fertile" years with acute PCOS and somehow just got the message that I was infertile and little could be done. I have no idea why I just accepted that at the time. I suppose at the time it suited me career wise not to pursue fertility options further. I don't regret it, but I am concerned I was so "accepting". This journey is just so weird. I started it with a perception of infertility and DH and I incorporated the concept that we wouldn't have children in our relationship. It took us both a lot of work to do it. And then things changed for us in ways we least expected. I hope that your you things changed unexpectedly and you do get your bfp..... soon. Anyway, my friend told me she was reading a book Inconceivable Notion I think is its title. I have it on hold at the library. My friend told me a lot of the stories there resonated for her and helped get a sense that what she is feeling and thinking is not "crazy". Maybe after I read it I will have more of an understanding of the path and you and my Bestie walk...

Anyway, sorry today was just a post to Gi. Thinking of you and lost of dust and stickies....