crumpet - I'm sorry you are feeling miserable about your b'day - I know all the milestones are hard when you have already imagined them all fat and preggers. I'm sure that you will not be pregnant next birthday either - cause you will already have a beautiful healthy bub in your arms!!

So I survived the follow up and the post mortem results. Basically it seems we were just really unlucky and hopefully there shouldn't be any significant risk for next bub. We have the green light to conceive next cycle (and got told we were naughty for not preventing this cycle, oh well!)

I feel quite relieved that it is all over and we can at least look forward, not that we will ever forget our special little first born.
thanks hun, i hope ur right!!!!
at the wedding yesterday i was sitting there going " i was meant to be 34 weeks preg and fat here and here i am just a normal person"

hun im glad the results wernt that bad, as in nothing dramatic, and yay for being allowed to get to it next month
I'm having a very angry day - just frustrated at the whole situation. Sorry to anyone who has me on facebook and felt confronted by the language I used in my status update
Re: my appointment, I've put it in my blog. Basically, all was normal (except, you know, the fact that he was dead) except one test came back with a borderline abnormality. They did another blood test, and if the results come back the same, that "might" have been the cause.
big hugs hun....... hope ur doing ok!

Crumpet - I know what you mean about being scared that the baby you lost might be the only baby you have. I spent a long time thinking and feeling that. It is hard to be positive sometimes but I am trying positive self talk and visualisation to try get myself out that negative space. I hope you get a BFP soon and CharlieB is right with her prediction!
thanks hun......good luck in the TWW!!!!!

crumpet- Happy early birthday! I won't have access to wish it to you later.I just want to say that I hear you and how you are feeling. I am often there myself. You are not alone, and there really is hope and lots to look forward to. I think that our losses make us realize how important children our to us and how much we sincerely want children to be a part of our lives. There is a quote that someone sent to me on an email and I often look to it for inspiration, when I am feeling really low. "When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight" ~Kahlil Gibran
thanks hun!!!!

i have my appt at the hospital at 11am on wednesday so hopefully something will happen there