Katiegirl - thanks for popping in, it's always good to hear success stories, because of the hope they offer. So glad to hear that your Anna is 17 months and UTD again! My feverent hope is that all of the wonderful mothers in here at the mo, will be popping back in the future to offer support, when theirs is the story of hope. Bless Nathaniel and your family.
Chez - good to hear from you. It's nice to be kept busy and distracted sometimes huh? But as nice as it is to have visitors its also nice to get the house back, but then I miss the visitors. So many contradictions. I hope your 2WW goes quickly... and that you did catch that eggie, stress and all. Isn't said that its when you least expect it?
I hope you are feeling a bit better, physically and emotionally. I think it was good for you to take the day off work. By the sounds of it, you really needed the extra sleep and rest. We can all understand the fear... I hope it doesn't get to you too much, but how can it not? After a while even believing gets a bit tired, but it bounces back, otherwise this thread wouldn't exist. Sending you strength.
Cmeggles - oh sweetie - I wish I was there with you ( well one second thoughts given the BDing...maybe not) Hope your trip is just so relaxing and let you and DH connect and chill. I think there is something so peaceful yet energising about the beach. The beach is one of my special places.
Crumpet - I know it's hard to feel "happy" about your birthday, but sweetie, honestly, it's ok to feel a little less sad on your birthday and maybe even smile and you don't have to feel guilty for doing so either. ? You are worthy of love and you are deserving of peace.
It's hard to go to those events and functions where we would have been pregnant, they are so much tougher than people on the outside realise. I remember the first game of sport I played after Ameila, I was so excited to be playing again because I just love it so much, but so so devastated that I was in a position to play. I sucked it up before the game, during warm up and during the game, but afterwards when the game ends and we shake hands of the opposition I was just sobbing as I hugged most people. I know and am friends with most of that opposition team, so they were used to the hugs, but not the sobbing. Then I just stood in the middle of the pitch with my arms outstretched and head raised to the heavens, tears coarsing down my cheeks. It was actually a really important release for me, and I didn't expect it to be that intense.
I hope you got to wear soomething special to the wedding to help you feel confident.
Wednesday is not far away. Thinking of you.....giving you strength.
CharliB, Teni - no "answers" is harder than answers. Charlie - you seem a little more at peace with that, and I hope for you that is what gives you some comfort and helps you heal.
Teni - it's ok to be angry. It is unfair. Why can such a cruel thing happen when there was nothing wrong? I know babe. I know those feeling and I know those thoughts. I am glad you wre able to get them out and express them. I only hope that in time you can find some peace with the "information" you do have. It doesn't take away that Ianto is your darling and much loved angel son and that you are his beloved mother, nothing can ever take that away.
Angelic - it must still be crazy for you. Thinking of you
Aries, Blessed, TUP - thinking of you.
To anyone I have missed but not named, even those who haven't posted for a while. Sending you my love and lots of strength.
AFM - All good here, ups and downs and periods of absolute despair and fear, but I think that's just part of the journey. I am so glad to have 3 cuddly and empathetic fur babies. Today, they are truly my joy and blessing. I wonder if they even know it?
So very out of character for me - Mum is having one done too. I am getting Beloved Son in japanese kanji writing really small on my wrist and Mum is getting Beloved Grandchild on her ankle. We have been talking about it for months but have been too chicken!! Of course if I fall this month - I will be glad to cancel 
....... if i got anything it would be a G somewhere but i wouldnt even know where
im not into fuss......
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