Glad to hear you had a great weekend, it's nice to just get away and be together. Well done on getting all your presents bought and wrapped, although with 4 children I would imagine you have to be fairly organised. We haven't done all of ours yet, guess it will be a busy weekend coming.
It has been pretty quiet in here lately, everyone must be getting ready for Christmas I guess - me? I don't have a life, lol
Personally I am trying to pretend Christmas isn't coming, ever since Sunday I have been getting teary if someone just looks at me the wrong way. I think it might be the pressure of the Christmas cheer, oh and, according to someone I know I should who every so politely told me, I should look into getting some help so I can deal with my grief... what the? :eek: I don't mean to be but I know I am a downer - we have this stupid stuffed reindeer at work and when you press his hand it sings Rudolf the red nose reindeer and yesterday and today anytime someone walks past it they press the damn button... I swear I am gonna throw it at someone before the week is through, I cringe every time I hear it!
I don't understand myself actually, I will usually show Nicholas' photo to anyone who wants to see, I'd show it to the man down the road if I thought he would be interested, and it doesn't upset me cause I just love him and feel proud that I helped make him... But, it was Michael's birthday yesterday so we went out for dinner and my poor mum started telling me about a friend of hers she showed a photo of Nicholas to and was saying how that person got very teary looking at the photo and kept kissing the photo and calling him an angel and she was saying how amazed she was cause he is a normal looking, normal sized baby. Mum said because he really was just a normal baby but... and I cut her off and said can we not talk about this please. She said I thought you liked talking about him and I said usually I do but at the moment I can't and I don't want to cry in the middle of a restaurant. I can still remember the look on her face and she was looked so upset, I feel so guilty now that I think I should apologise to her but then if it didn't bother her too much I will bring more attention to it. I don't know why I can't talk about him to people at the moment, I can barely think of him without getting upset... but it is only since Sunday, I can't think of anything in particular that has set me off!
To get my mind off everything I have decided I am going to go to a different OB next time, so I am looking for a high risk OB. I know that because I have only had one s/b baby (I hate that term but I guess I can't avoid it) I would not be considered "high risk" but I feel like I need to at least try. Not because I don't trust my current OB or blame him in anyway but because I am thinking about it, if I decide not to and the same thing happens I will always wonder what if I had of changed. If I change and the same thing happens well I guess I have done everything I could so I hopefully won't blame myself. So anyway I have thrown myself into finding someone else and I put a post under another forum asking for recommendations. So anyway, hopefully I go ok with that and it will give me something to look forward to in the future.
Anyway, enough of that I think I am babbling more so than usual because it has been so quiet in here - I am like starved of BB, lol.
I hope tomorrow goes well I bet it is VERY busy in your home while DH is away, I know how busy Michael's 3 kids keep us when they are here and that is only for a weekend when there are 2 of us - sometimes we are buggered when they go home, they have so much energy and we don't, we must be getting old!!!! Or maybe it's just cause they aren't here all the time I don't know.
Well, as I said I hope all goes well tomorrow and pop in on Thursday and let us know how you go with your ob.
I hope everyone is doing good and talk to everyone later.
Love Mel
P.S. Surely this has to go down in the history of this thread as the longest post? lol - Sorry I am a bit bored cause Michael is working and I am just waiting for him to finish, it's past my bedtime... wow, I really am getting old!
Last edited by Mel1977; December 19th, 2006 at 08:38 PM.
I bet it is VERY busy in your home while DH is away, I know how busy Michael's 3 kids keep us when they are here and that is only for a weekend when there are 2 of us - sometimes we are buggered when they go home, they have so much energy and we don't, we must be getting old!!!! Or maybe it's just cause they aren't here all the time I don't know.
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