Hi ladies

Tashybabe - I just want to give you a big hug hun, you need to be kind to yourself. It is still so recent since you lost little Leo, that it is not surprising you had such a meltdown. It would have been very hard to have been around your friend's baby, and it is quite natural for you to feel overwhelmed. I found that songs triggered me as well, and for a while I only listened to the news channel, or channel surfed when a song came on that triggered an emotional response in me. You are so right about taking the energy to be around others which ends up in a big crash. I found accepting that as part of the grieving process made it easier for me. At least your friend acknowledged your pain and maybe he thought having you talk about it might help him understand and therefore help (guys want to fix things) and maybe help you too. Many friends of ours, and family, have never spoken about Ryan to us again after the initial 'telling'. I used to think that was because they were uncomfortable about it, and they probably were, but also because they thought we didn't want to talk about it, and we didn't for quite a while. I am not sure when that changes, but it will, and I can now talk about him to close friends and family without collapsing into a dark hole for days after. It will happen for you too. In the meantime, do something for yourself that makes you happy, even if it is just to see a movie, or walk in the park, something that makes you smile - it really helps the soul.

Powelly, that is great news from your ob/gyn. Now it's time to think lucky! Sending you lots of babydust!

Ladytess - how are you going hun? Has AF stayed away for you? FX and stickyvibes coming your way.

Kateo - great news on the new FS. It can make a world of difference having someone you can relate to and respects your questions and concerns. I wish you truckloads of luck!

Gigi - hope all is well with you hun.

AFM, sorry I have been MIA... we have been so busy but I have been thinking I must let you all know what's going on. Pick up was Monday and we had great results and 2 blasts were transferred Saturday. We will have some frosties in the freezer as well as a backup, which is nice and a first.

So I am PUPO! It was quite emotional for me, so I am very glad to have had acupuncture before and after the transfer as that really helped with my emotions. I spent the afternoon lying in bed watching a movie and eating some amazing pastries that DH picked up - he's fantastic! We are both very happy that we went down this track.

Anyway, hugs and babydust to all!
oxo