Hello Lovely Ladies.
Not a great deal of news to report from here. Saw my new Dr on the 16th of last month and so far he is amazing. He didnt make me feel like a d#$khead when I asked questions, my old ob/gyn would laugh at me and brush my questions off. Also he sent me for a heap of blood tests (10 vials worth!) I got a letter in the mail from him today saying that I had a positive ENA (extractable antinuclear antibody) and positive lupus anticoagulant test and he wants me to retest just to be sure before my next visit. Any of you lovely ladies had any experience with either of these tests and what this might mean? I see him again on the 27th of this month. I am just impressed that he actually read my results before I was sitting in front of him like most Drs and that he got in touch with me before the consult and included lab forms so I didnt need an appointment just to get them! As you can probably tell from my gushing I have not had much luck with Drs!!
So for the last year I have been in pretty intense pain and had been seeing a rheumatiod arthritis specialist and while preg with James - but new Dr doesnt think I even have it! Old Dr did blood work and said I had tested neg for RA but keep taking the prednisone as it was working! Great help he was if it turns out I dont even have RA!!
Ok that rant over
Well our fundraising "High Tea" is on this Saturday afternoon. We have about 40 ladies confirmed to come already so we are pretty excited about that, for a small town I think that is not a bad turn out. Hopefully it gets bigger and better every year.
I dont know what is in the water or if its just because I am more "aware" but nearly everyone I know that has had a baby since losing James has had a boy! 11 in 6 months!! No girls. Sigh, it just sucks - no other words to really describe how I feel about it all, none that baby belly will let me use anyway lol. I thought I was going really well and getting back to some level of normal but the last 10 days or so have me wondering if maybe I do need to go and see someone. One minute I am fine, happy, normal, nearly the old me and the next I can be that cranky I want to punch someone or a blubbering mess on the floor! Or a combination of both and that is not pretty. I try to keep my crying to in the shower in the morning so my husband and daughter dont see as it just upsets everyone more. I know this sounds weird but it nearly feels normal now to have my big cry and then I can get on with the day.
Last friday I had to go and do the 2 hour glucose test (another test for new Dr) and I had to ask to sit in another part of the waiting area as there was a mother there with two little girls - both in nappies so under 3 I would think. She kept telling them to shut the f#$% up and swearing at them, of course she was there for the 2 hour test too as she was very pregnant. The last straw was her equally bogan friend arrived and asked her if she would have any more after this baby was born and she said "nah didnt even f$#%ing want this one!" So was either move waiting rooms or choke her til her head popped off (I dont really mean that but I am sure you lovely ladies have all had that moment!!!!)
Ok enough rants for one day ladies, I know everyone has issues they are dealing with daily - not just preg or baby related. I do have good days, hopefully tomorrow will be fun. Off to a playland with a 3 lovely friends and our 8 combined children 2 hours away!
Much love and baby dust and terribly sticky babies to us all.
Love Trace xoxoxo