Hi girls
Mel - love that ticker gorgeous! And great to hear you have a stack of blood tests up your sleeve!!!!
SB - fingers crossed for you...have you done a sneaky test yet? He he sorry just because I'm weak doesn't mean everyone else is too.
Judy - so to hear this month may not be the one! This month was the same for me...
Klee - 15 weeks MY GOSH - your ticker is flying!!!! how are you feeling?
Hi to everyone else.
My news...Shi&&y...My state of mind...completely nuts...my hopefully feelings....BIG ZERO.

This month was a real pest. Firstly I had the negative test in NZ but when I got home still no AF....I re tested on day 29 and had a very, very faint line, day 30 very faint line no AF, day 31 very faint line no AF then bloody old day 32 faint line then AF arrives while I was out for dinner. As I'm usually 26 - 28 days I was getting pretty hopeful.
I wanted to scream and had that old familiar feeling of being a bit trapped in the sadness. Because we were out I couldn't cry to DH and tell him how disappointed, messed up and tormented I felt and although we were out with close friends I didn't have the emotional energy to first tell them what high hopes I was beginning to have and then finish with the "but AF just arrived two minutes ago".
the general feeling is that perhaps a little something was fertilised but ONCE AGAIN didn't hang in there for the journey.
I had really hoped this month as I had started on the vitex (recommended by a gorgeous BB gal) and literally did the legs up (to much information) and thought maybe, just maybe, it was our turn for a dream to come true.
As I truly believe good news is catching...and some of the BEST news has occured this month....I thought everything was pointing the right direction.
Friends of friends had a baby a few weeks ago and called him Charlie (which was the name we had chosen for our little boy) I saw him this morning (completey GORGEOUS) and I felt so jealous that they were grinning from ear to ear cuddling up to their Charlie. Booo hoo
I wish I had a crystal ball because if it is time to try try try and move on then I would rather not stand up for the monthly whack in the heart. Goodness that sounded twisted (sorry) but I'm starting to feel as if my determination is slipping.
Well that's just today anyway...
PLEASE someone share some more good news - love Georgie