Lynn the hurdles are getting higher and harder, but if anyone can jump them, it is you.
I agree that if it is at all possible you should try your hardest to stay positive, but it doesn't change the fact that you are allowed to feel all the other emotions such as anger and dispair. I can understand how your DH feels, I think he is just trying to make it better like most men do.
Your M&D are wonderful parents. I am so glad that you have them for support.
Deb - thank you for the info. I hope you are right. Not that it makes any of this any easier but it would be good to know that there wasn't a mistake. Thank you so much for the stone. You should see my bedside table!! I have so many things that I hope will help I am sorry that the stupid witch arrived, I hope she is being kind to you. How good is a plan! I hope I get another plan on Tuesday when I see FS. This plan didn't work so hopefully the next one does.
Mel - I am so sorry that you are going through this as well. I just wish that our bodies would work This month wasn't our month so lets make April our month - we need to stay positive together. I know it is hard but we have to remember what our dream is and do everything possible to get that dream. I think you should try and see a FS as soon as possible just to rule out that there is nothing wrong.
Bailey - I have already had that thought - what if yesterday's u/s was wrong and I am about to O! But my levels are so low that that isn't possible. I really don't know what is going on but I am going to find out on Tuesday and demand that my FS does an u/s and explains exactly what he is seeing and what happened with the other two u/s. I saw the Stillbirth article in the paper this morning. A very interesting article. The comments of the family that the interviewed sound like some of the things I have said. The last comment in particular is exactly how I feel - "Even if one family is prevented from going through this, that would be enough for us". That is my aim, to stop other familes going through this painful and heartbreaking journey.
Spring - you are right, we don't deserve to suffer any more. We are still grieving for our angels and we are now struggling to fall pg and it isn't fair. But you shouldn't feel useless. Just being here and supporting us is being useful. Everyone's journey is different and that is what makes us who we are.
Flowerchid: Sorry that your AF turned up. I hope she is short and kind to you so that you can get started on the next cycle. You sound like you have a wonderful ob, I'm glad that you felt better after seeing her and that you have a plan of attack. I hope your friend who is expecting twins is well, it amazes me that despite all your struggles, you are such a wonderful friend to so many women. Thanks for your kind words about lil' spring. I feel really blessed that I am one of the first cab's off the rank, I just wished I could have shared the cab with you all.
Lynn: I'm getting very excited about our date, I told DH and he said that he was very jealous (lol). Hope that you are feeling better.
Mel - I sent a copy of that article for you today. on the BFN. How are you feeling today? Sorry to sound dumb, but what is a Levovist? I hope DH's swimmers are all good too. I cannot believe that someone posted that to you in a thread, what a b!tch.
Lynn - I am hoping the FS can answer all of your questions and look at some other options for you. I thought that you would have seen that article. Are you going to go to that ball? The lady at Sids and Kinds was telling me that they are doing alot more contributions to stillbirth and neo-natal death these days as well as SIDS as they have managed to successfully reduce the number of babies lost to SIDS, and that there are more lost to stillbirth every year than SIDS. That surprised me, but today's article backed that up.
Spring - You are so not useless in your support here. You are our rolemodel, we all wanna be just like you - I sound like a stalker hey? No seriously, you are so supportive to everyone here, and I know I for one love, appreciate and value your kind words, advice and support. I think that you are just what we need, we need to see that this CAN be done, that we can get pregnant, that we can get through this long hard journey and bring our babies home in the end. Like Deb said, we will all get there, you are just the first cab off the rank.
Flowerchild - Sorry to hear you got AF, but at least now you can start another cycle fresh and put your new plan into action. I hope it is the very last AF you see for a long time. I am sure your next carton of eggs will be gorgeous
Hello to Nat - where you at??
hi to everyone else too!!
I am so confused at the moment. I have had weird sharpish pains in my belly today, not quite period pains, but I am not sure. If they are period pains, that would mean I will get them in a couple of days, but I am not due to get them til next monday the 9th!(That would suck, that's my birthday) Arrghhhh! I just with this stupid body of mine would either get UTD or pg! I hate this limbo! Oooh, I just had a vent.
Well, it looks like you lot all have lives.......where are you all? Here I am, the lonely newly-wed, all abandoned. First by hubby, then the monster went to sleep, and you girls all have something better to do!! Lol...I might go to bed then. Good Night.
Hey Bailey: Sorry to stand you up but I am back now.
Thought I would swing by before bed but I assume you have already hit the sack.. I just wanted to say I hope you have a great belated hen's day tomorrow. You deserve to be spoilt rotten. Can't wait to hear all about it.
Bailey - LOL! Don't feel abandoned, we are here. Spring and I just had a massive night out on the town!!! LOL.......not! We are so old sitting there drinking our cups of tea
Hope you have a great day tomorrow and I hope those pains are BFP pains
Yes I am going to the ball. I asked friends and family and was quite surprised at the response. I have 2 tables!! Are you going? Let's just hope that they can reduce the Stillbirth numbers like they have for SIDS.
You have probably already gone to bed. Where I am about to head.
Spring - thanks for the night out. It was what I needed. Otherwise I would have just sat at home on my own feeling sorry for myself.
Everyone else must be having busy nights. Hope you are all well.
Don't get me wrong, I am completely shattered and upset and all of those other feelings. I really did think that this was going to be my month. I was on the meds and I thought it would work. We all have dreams, and one of mine was to hold my next bubba on Christmas Day. Last Christmas was the worst and I thought I would make this Christmas better but that isn't going to be now I just feel like I don't have any energy left to feel anything. I don't know if that is because I have that numb feeling again - so many emotions that you just don't know what to feel. It is so devastating that my body won't do what it is supposed to do.
Hey Mel, I was getting worried because I hadn't heard from you in a while.
Not a stupid question about Clomid. I did ask him if that is what we would do but he said that there are too many side effects with increasing Clomid so we would probably go to FSH injections. I never ever thought I would have to inject myself to fall preg but hey I will do anything right about now.
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I am sorry that the stupid witch arrived, I hope she is being kind to you. How good is a plan! I hope I get another plan on Tuesday when I see FS. This plan didn't work so hopefully the next one does.
This month wasn't our month so lets make April our month - we need to stay positive together. I know it is hard but we have to remember what our dream is and do everything possible to get that dream. I think you should try and see a FS as soon as possible just to rule out that there is nothing wrong.
on the BFN. How are you feeling today? Sorry to sound dumb, but what is a Levovist? I hope DH's swimmers are all good too. I cannot believe that someone posted that to you in a thread, what a b!tch.
- I sound like a stalker hey? No seriously, you are so supportive to everyone here, and I know I for one love, appreciate and value your kind words, advice and support. I think that you are just what we need, we need to see that this CAN be done, that we can get pregnant, that we can get through this long hard journey and bring our babies home in the end. Like Deb said, we will all get there, you are just the first cab off the rank.
Good Night.
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