Tommys Mum: I am amazed that after the horrible things you have had to endure, you are still kind enough to offer your support and advice. You must me an absolutely wonderful soul. I am so sorry for the loss of you baby, my heart breaks for you and your family. It is weird sometimes how the people who are the closest to us, can sometimes cause the most harm. Please know that no matter what, we will all support you. You never have to fear being judged or in competition with us. Big love honey, you are a very brave woman
Lynn: Oh babe, I don't know if I am jumping the gun for saying sorry about the results, but from the looks of your post it wasn't great news. If and when you want to chat about it, I am here for you hun. Take care.
Bailey: Lil Spring said to say Ta Aunty B, we are the big 15 weeks today (well 15w 1d) if you look at my ticker. You are being very restrained not testing yet. When do you think you will give in? I have everything crossed for a BFP and I am sending you a huge big cloud of .
Nat, Mel, Flowerchild, Chelle, Klee and all you other wonderful women, I hope you are all well. I have only just got home from Canberra so I am going to have some late dinner and then stalk BB for a while. Got to see DH for and hour or so which was nice but way too short. He is such a spunk that I just wanted to bundle him into the overhead locker and bring him home with me.
Lol Spring - You would have problems storing DH in the overhead locker, there are new restrictions on what you can take onboard flights now, so he would have to fit in a clear 20cm x 20cm sandwich bag
I had a bt and u/s this morning. The u/s showed that there are NO follicles Confused????? Yeah me too. I had a different lady to the one that did my u/s last Friday. The lady today said that there are no follicles there and that would be consistent with my bt results over the past few days, very low levels of hormones. I told her that I was confused because the lady that did my u/s last Friday gave me hope and told me that I had some good size follicles. She said that they were probably cysts. I was so mad!!! How can you get that so wrong????? Here I am with a little bit of hope that I will o this month because I am told that I have some really good follicles and then *bang* all hope is gone. I am having another bt on Monday and I have made an appointment with the FS for Tuesday so we can work out what is going on. I am going to get him to do another u/s and get his opinion. I am also going to tell him how disappointed I am at getting conflicting results. This process is hard enough without being given false hope. I have little hope now that this is going to happen this month but the nurse today said that it can still happen, it will just be late. They believe that my body is not responding to Clomid so I will discuss options with my FS on Tuesday.
Lynn I am so sorry. I don't know what to say, but I am praying that the FS will be able to give you a clearer picture about what is going on. I know it must be so hard to stay positive with all of this but try not to get too down just yet, wait to talk to the FS.
WTF is the person who did your scan last Friday thinking???? Surely cysts and follies looke totally different!!!! You have every right to be angry/upset. I am so sorry that you have had to endure this. It just isn't fair babe.
You know what, the only thing out of all of this that I am sure of is that you are an absolutely amazing, caring, compasionate, wonderful, kind, understanding, inspiring woman. I would give anything for a little bit of good news to come your way.
If there is anything, and I mean anything that I can do, please just let me know.
Hey Lynn, just a thought but there is a thread for PCOS here somewhere, maybe post in there and see if the girls there know anything about the u/s and what the cyst's look like compared to the folicles. They may be able to give you some advice.
Spring - thank you so much for your kind words. I guess a bit of DH is rubbing off on me. He always says don't worry about things you can't change. I can't change what this woman said to me last week, I CAN be angry about it and I CAN get answers as to what is going on. I need to find the positives, otherwise it will destroy me. The only thing that hurts is that I had hope for a week and it was false hope. But then again it gave me something to believe in for a while. I had a bit of a breakdown this morning and my m&d came over and my beautiful mum cried with me in frustration but my dad (god love him!) always thinks positive and drilled it into me that there is always a chance and if it isn't this month, then it will be next month because they will sort out what is going on and help. I guess I just have to believe that. I need to believe in something positive otherwise it will just eat away at me.
Bailey - thanks for letting me know about the thread. I do go in and read it sometimes as well as the TTC on Clomid thread. I spent the day with Dr Nat today so she was able to help me. I guess I just need to wait until Tuesday and speak to FS and get his opinion and work out where to go from here..................surely forward for a change! These hurdles are getting higher and harder, arent they?
Lynn the hurdles are getting higher and harder, but if anyone can jump them, it is you.
I agree that if it is at all possible you should try your hardest to stay positive, but it doesn't change the fact that you are allowed to feel all the other emotions such as anger and dispair. I can understand how your DH feels, I think he is just trying to make it better like most men do.
Your M&D are wonderful parents. I am so glad that you have them for support.
Lynn - I am so sorry you are going through this What a stupid woman! Spring is right, surely they can tell the difference between a follicle and a cyst! It must be so hard for you, if only they had have told you all the way through that nothing was happening - it would have still been hard to deal with but at least you werent expecting something that wasnt happening. I really hope your FS can tell you what you can do from here. Do you know if maybe he just needs to up your dose of clomid or something? Sorry probably a stupid question...
Take care of yourself and let me know if you need anything :hugs:
Deb - Im sorry it isnt your month this month I hope you are doing ok and know that we are all here for you.
Bailey - I havent resisted the urge, I have tested every day for the last couple of days (see below). I still have my fingers crossed for you this month. You must be getting so excited about your holiday
Spring - Wow you sound like you have had a busy day, you must be buggered! Glad you got to see DH even if only for a short time, I can imagine how hard it is to leave without him.
Nat - Hope you are well.
tommysmum - Welcome to the thread. Sorry you have to be here, but I hope you can find some support with us.
OK well as for me, I have been testing and I have gotten all BFNs! Considering I am due for AF on Sunday I think we can now safely say that I am not pregnant AGAIN! What is wrong with me? It is making me so angry and I am so frustrated. Everyone else seems to fall without even trying but I so desperately want to be pregnant and it has been almost 7 months since we lost Nicholas. 7 months of being a childless mother, 7 months of living my life hoping and waiting to be pregnant, every decision I make in life now is based around I will be pregnant "soon".... well "soon" has been and gone a thousand times now and quite frankly it is not fair. We have been trying so hard and I would give up anything I have in life just to get a BFP and I cant get it. What the hell do I have to do? How many other positions can we try? How much longer do we have to wait? To be perfectly honest, I dont know if I can keep doing this I feel like I keep getting nowhere in life and it has been so long and my life just wont move forward, and the stress is too much. People say relax and it will happen... how can I relax when we have been trying for all this time and nothing is happening? I stress that something is wrong! I stress that it is never going to happen! I stress that I will not be having a live baby in 2007 like I had planned! I stress about whether there is something wrong with me! I stress about what if Nicholas was and always will be my only child! I stress about whether we are doing it enough! I stress about whether we are doing it too much! I stress about whether we are doing it in the right position! I stress about whether I have elevated my a*** for long enough after! I stress about stressing cause I know it is probably the reason I am not getting pregnant
DH is having his sperm test tomorrow and I have my Levovist next Thursday - where do we go if they are all normal? I have an appointment with an infertility specialist on 15 May but I dont think I cant wait that long mentally - I know I sound like a spoilt child but I WANT IT NOW!!!!! I think I have waited long enough!!!!!!
I so wish that stupid girl who posted a reply to one of my threads all those months ago and told me "I should just think myself lucky I can get pregnant" could read this now cause I would really like to tell her to F*** OFF!!!!
Anyway sorry but I really needed to vent all of that.
Mel
Last edited by Mel1977; March 30th, 2007 at 10:42 PM.
: sorry wrote bfp instead of bfn
Yeah I am here and I am ok, wasnt on last night cause we had some dramas with our bird and had to take him to the vet but anyway... long story!
Daily injections sound awful But you do what you have to do right? I remember when I thought I was going to need daily injections until they got the new antibody levels back which said they werent as high as they originally thought, I was thinking it would be awful but I would have done anything.
I kind of know what you mean about your body not doing what it should, I know we are in different situations and I know it must be harder for you because you cant make the plans cause of things not working properly, but as stupid as it sounds I sort of feel that way about my own body. Yes, I am ovulating and everything - but where is that getting me?
Anyway, I really do hope your FS can give you some answers and some hope... where are we without hope? Its what gets us through the days
Well I am going to go off and feel sorry for myself and you now
Last edited by Mel1977; March 30th, 2007 at 10:56 PM.
Lynn - I never even thought of talking to Dr Nat, I am sure she was able to give you lots of info. I hope today is a better day for you
Just wanted to let you sydney gals know that in todays Daily Telegraph there is an article on stillbirth on page 86. Mel, if you like, I can post you a copy, email me your address and I can copy it at work today and send it down.
Off to get ready for work, so will come in later, have a good day everyone.
Hi again, was just about to go when I saw Lynn and Mel's post's.
Mel - You have every right to be stressed and upset about this. Is there anyway you can get into the FS earlier than that, or try another one? Even if you try going down to their office and have a tantrum in the waiting room till they squeeze you in there somewhere?
I still have my fingers crossed for you and am hoping with everything that you get that BFP tomorrow.
Lynn - I just wanted to say that I have that same thing as you with the baby-by-christmas. I am really sad that I won't have a baby by then too. I just always imagined that I would fall first go (bit too optimistic) and that this christmas will so much better than the first and I have been struggling with that the last few days since I really started to realise I won't get that BFP this month. It is hard letting that go. I hope you are feeling a little better today, and hopefully the specialist can give you some proper answers next week. just a thought though, is it possible that the original u/s was right and there was follie's and that the second sonographer is wrong? Were both u/s's at the same place?
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Confused????? Yeah me too. I had a different lady to the one that did my u/s last Friday. The lady today said that there are no follicles there and that would be consistent with my bt results over the past few days, very low levels of hormones. I told her that I was confused because the lady that did my u/s last Friday gave me hope and told me that I had some good size follicles. She said that they were probably cysts. I was so mad!!! How can you get that so wrong????? Here I am with a little bit of hope that I will o this month because I am told that I have some really good follicles and then *bang* all hope is gone. I am having another bt on Monday and I have made an appointment with the FS for Tuesday so we can work out what is going on. I am going to get him to do another u/s and get his opinion. I am also going to tell him how disappointed I am at getting conflicting results. This process is hard enough without being given false hope. I have little hope now that this is going to happen this month but the nurse today said that it can still happen, it will just be late. They believe that my body is not responding to Clomid so I will discuss options with my FS on Tuesday.
I am so sorry. I don't know what to say, but I am praying that the FS will be able to give you a clearer picture about what is going on. I know it must be so hard to stay positive with all of this but try not to get too down just yet, wait to talk to the FS.
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