Hi Jlk. Nice to see you here.

Well ladies I am not sure if this is the thread I should have posted in.

I can see alot of you have had stillborns and for that I am deeply sorry.

I guess of recent times I have come more to grips with my m/c's as I know that m/c is definitely better then a stillbirth.

I just had a d&c on the 31st of August 07 for what appeared to be twins (identical). This is the 2nd lot of twins I have m/c, one set before the pregnancy of my son Lachlan. Now he was a very eventful pregnancy with lots of red profuse bleeding and huge clots were passed, but amazingly he is here.

I have been having a hard time trying to deal with the fact that I have lost 4 babies now and I am so confused as to why my body keeps producing them if I can't obviously carry them. So I am praying and hoping for a single healthy non-complication pregnancy, when I fall pregnant next. Although my gyno has mentioned of my high risk of having another twin pregnancy but doesn't ever believe they will be successful.

I have been beating myself up that I have a healthy son (other then some major issues with severe reflux) and I should be ever so grateful and I am but why do I still hurt. I know there are people out there far worse then my situation which makes me feel guilty for being so sad at times.

I thought I wouldn't feel so bad this time as I have proven I can have a child whereas the first time there was always doubt if I could ever have children.

Anyway sorry if I have posted in the wrong area and sorry again to those who have had stillborn babies. It touches my heart that life can be so cruel at times.

Love to all.